accepting it as it is

I've heard so many stories about the University, i should say
It is not all about fun as some people think
It requires so much discipline
so so sooo much of that
I guess i have to start accepting some things
Like........
well i can't believe a lecturer can just tell you " I'm gonna trail half of this class"
OMG
This is our life our future, our dream that we've had for so long and have spent sleepless nights working for.
what are we supposed to tell our parents, more importantly ourselves?
I really dunno what to say,
I've just come to the realisation that what you want is not exactly what someone else would want.

Resolution

All I see is a new person
Someone completely changed
With a past that has been erased
A fresh future, bright of course!
A novel path that needs to be trod with someone else in control!
I see a new me……………………………
With you!

Reprieve

Could you ever forgive me?
Will you forget what I did to you?
Can you ever forgive me for troubling you so?
For destroying your life the way I did?
Would you find the will to smile and say “you are forgiven”?
Forget the past?

As we go along separate paths,
Your forgiveness is one thing I beg for
To set my conscience free
To ease the guilt and pain

Never forget this:
I still care about you
I do, truly I do!

Reckoning

I knew it wouldn’t work
But I still wanted to hold-on
Hold-on o to something that was visibly impossible

We were on opposite sides of the earth
We were from different worlds
My family, I knew would never accept one from a different place
But I still kept the flame burning

I knew I did not have a future with him; we had separate paths to tread
But I wanted to enjoy the few moments of love, deep, pure and sincere love.

Love that would last, but for a while
That which had an end!

Why would I want to be so cruel to myself and hurt the one I loved so deeply?
Why would I want to sacrifice months of pain for a few weeks of joy and happiness?
“Am I doing the right?”
*tears flowing down my cheeks*

sooooooo sorry

Hiya pepople i know i have been outta blogville for such a long time
I'm really sorry.
But i'm back now and i'm going to keep you informed about my thoughts (well almost all of them). lol
Try visiting this syte regularly, at least once a week because there should be a new post almost each week
Stay cuul and try to forgive me for being absent for such a long time.

Tus tus everyone................

sooooooo sorry

music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just loving this song!
check it out!
In relation to my post about songs earlier on,
this is my new song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What do you think about it??????????

some advice.........................

Hiya People,
I stumbled upon this when I was having my quiet time today and I thought, “why not share it with others?”
So here I am, ready to share.

Scandals seem to have become a compulsory road to success
No one, and I repeat no one, seems to make it in life without a scandal here or there. Even in our own political setting, we see this in play.
As Christians, we would face all kinds of troubles and scandals and would by all and every means, be a part of them.
So many people have said the same thing.
I accept that it is easier to say than act it out. When we come face to face with the situation, we realize it’s not that easy as we thought.

My advice?
Just be calm,
Stay focused on God
And realize on thing:
God is always in control!

It is comforting to know that
Even when you don’t know why certain things happen,
Someone better than you are, knows why
That person, is God.
He has a reason for everything that happens in our lives
He is concerned about our little details.
Even when we think He is not!

The Two Sides of Ana, the Two Sides of Love

I happened to stay up till about 10pm some days ago!
(Yeah, I usually don’t stay up that late, so
you may choose to call me a chicken. Lol.)
That's like 2 whole hours past my bedtime.
Luckily for me, I had the chance to watch "The Two Sides of Ana"

And OMG Patty(I hope I had the name right)
With her plump lovely self,
such a big heart,
so sweet,
ready to help anyone out,
lovely smile,
and soft voice,
Had to be cheated on by that no-good guy
with one of her best friends!

Why is life so unfair?
*tear, tear*

Why does this kind of thing always happen to people who don't deserve to be treated in such a manner?
She is so kind-hearted

The most annoying part,
I would say, is the guy telling her:
"I'm sorry. You don't deserve to be treated in such a manner."
How irritating can't this guy get?
He was the one treating her in that manner she didn't deserve. BUT,
He was right!
She didn't deserve to be treated like that
Let alone, by the man she loved with every fibre of her being!

Why is life so unfair? I ask again.
Why is the world so cold and cruel
with no sense of emotion at all?

Love is so painful with the wrong person
It is cruel and doesn't come from the right place in the heart

Love is so sweet with the right person
It is so gentle and understanding
It is sincere, faithful and
everlasting!

How do we know whether that individual is the
"right" person?
How can we ever tell?

This Is How The World Should Be!

Joe Butler lost his legs in a 1965 land mine in Vietnam. He returned home, a war hero. Twenty years later, as he working in his garage in a small town in Arizona, he heard a female screaming from a nearby house. He began rolling his wheelchair towards the house, but the dense flower garden was slowing down his speed; so he got out of his wheel chair and started to crawl through the dirt and the bushes. He got there and discovered that a three year-old girl named Stephanie Hanes was drowning in a swimming pool! He immediately dived in and rescued the infant whose breath was nearly gone. AS he put his mouth over hers to commence CPR, he told her mother “I was her arms to get her out of the pool. It’ll be okay. I am her lungs. Together we can make it”. Seconds later, the little girl coughed, regained consciousness, and began to cry.

As they hugged and rejoiced together, Mr. Butler told his story: “When my legs were blown off in the Vietnam War, I was all alone in a field till a little Vietnamese girl struggled to drag me into her village, she whispered in broken English, “It okay. You can live. I be your legs. Together we make it.” And I wanted to do the same for Stephanie.

I came across this story in “OUR DAILY MANNA” my devotional guide and I thought I should share this.

Life should be more like this
There should be love everywhere
Not people killing others just to make it

We should realize that we are siblings
We may be from different countries
But remember, these countries are just borders created by us!

There should be love among us
Let us love like never before and care for others
We would all, at some point in time, need love!

Peace!

Is That Why They Call it the Blues?

All right, all right people….
I don’t know about you, but music is massive in my life.
Talk about Gospel, RnB through to hip-hop n all
It’s got this kinda effect on me.
The pain seems to reduce or i just become happier!

I realized one thing though,
Almost everyone has got some kind of special music for all events
We (I mean girls like me) tend to sing, “No Air” when we are in love
Or something similar that has to do with you not being able to live without somebody
Before I forget, “With You” by Chris Brown also falls in that category
We sing, “I’m A Survivor” by Destiny’s Child (I don’t know if I’ve got the name right) when the guy breaks up with us.

Personally, I’ve been singing “I’m a survivor, I’m not gonna give up, I’m not gonna stop, I’m gonna work harder.Now that you are out of my life I’m so much better…….”
Okay,……….
I don’t know the words but hey
That’s my song!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The Deepest Question of All

Love is, to some,
The magic in the air when you meet your Beau
To others, it is the magnetic pull to that new guy in school
Yet still, to more, it is the ax of all the pain you feel.

It’s many different things
To as numerous diverse people

Whatever it is to you
Your reason must be very good
For personalizing it so

And what it means to me
Doesn’t matter at all.

So, what does it mean to you?

Regrets Repeated over a Broken Heart

I thought I was all right
But now, I realize not

I gave him the stick to batter my heart, again!
To violate my existence,
And scrape the scab that was mending
Now, the gash is open and sore, once more
Oozing oodles of gore!

I shouldn’t have thought twice
I shouldn’t have welcome you this time

I’m pained to start nursing
All over again!

Acknowledgment

Just wanted to say this:
Thank you!

For all those who took time to read my posts
and/or comment on them,
you really don’t know how I’ve been inspired

For a moment I just felt like giving up
but
God always has a way of helping us out
through friends and strangers
He always makes a way out

Thanx y'all
You're truly appreciated!

THE CALL THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING

My phone began vibrating
It was my boo so I picked
My pulse was racing wild
I hadn’t heard from him the entire day

“Annie” he said “I’m sorry I can’t continue this”
“I dun get you” I said
“I am sorry this has to end!”

Oh no!
My insides were melting into …
My heart bled.
I loved him so much
I trusted him completely

This couldn’t be happening….
He said we would last forever,
So what went wrong?
“Was I at fault?” I asked
“No, it’s all my fault” he answered

It was all his fault
Yet, I have to bear the pain of having my heart broken
By the guy I loved with all my heart!

Cold Cuts of the Heart

I called to let you know I had found something I loved doing.
And all you could tell me was ‘I dun care’
I’m not acting with my mind any longer, but rather with my heart
Cos my mind would only cause me to lose my love

Your words each day seem to bore a different hole in my heart
They are tearing it apart!

You seem to act without any emotion
You’re a cold heartless thing.

I don’t know why I still get in touch
But one thing I know for sure:
I love you!

The heart you keep piercing and mauling
Even in its shredded state, still beats with the words……….
I……. love…………you!

food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who in this world doesn't like food?

I totally agree with the fact that
we do not live to eat but rather we eat to live
but hey, the primary fact is that, we all need food to survive!

Food is one thing i enjoy (not all the tym though)
Unfortunately,
healthy food is not ma kinda thing
i prefer junk food (and loadz of it too)
to the healthy food.

Leaves and veges dun have taste i want
I understand they're good (n i agree with that fact also)
I do eat a few of them (sometyms)
but apart from 'those' tyms,
it's JUNK FOOD all the way!

My best is fries...........
OMG
those are like my favourites.
With some ketch-up and grilled chicken.....
mmm mmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
You would have just made my day!

Burgers!!!!!!
i like those
Just a bite through those and.... mmmmmmmm
The taste is just great!
mmm mmm mmmmmmm
burgers are lovely.

Ice Cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we all love ice cream
ice ice ice cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i scream for ice cream!
i like them
the vanilla is wow
strawberry, chocolate, cappuccino
coffee what else?????????
the list just goes on and on

Chocolate! yeyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!
that is one of my best things in the world
Celebrations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
talk about, mars, bounty, malteasers,
i just love all of them!
Cadbury,...........
i love your chocolate
n i must add my very own
GOLDEN TREE CHOCOLATE!
Just the way chocolate is supposed to be
and healthier too!

which food am i leaving out this tym round?

Banku!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(this is gud food though)
(unless u're an african n interested in african dishes, you wouldn't know what i'm referring to)
i love it!
with Shito, fresh n fried!
omg
tastes soooooooo guud
or better still,
with okra soup/stew (whichever!)
just real guud.

we all like some food at some point in tym dun we?

How can i?

I must admit;
I av such a bad sense of fashion
my 'dressing' is not all that ryt(if i should put it that way)
My parents think i'm from the stone age,
my friends think i'm old fashioned ,
my sisters think i'm not that hip,
my cousins think i'm so outta date..............
the list just goes on!
So i ask,
what is so special about this whole being fashionable 'thing'
Why can't i just get fashionable.
I've tried a lot of tyms
so many many tyms, to get fashionable
but.......................
I just dun seem to be fashionable enough
i wear this, someone says that


Dressing has been one problem i've had since i was little
i know sometyms (once in a long while), i wear something everyone things is nice
But i'm never consistent
one tym it's nice , the other tym, is totally weird and outta this world!
gosh!

What exactly makes these people look stunning all the tym?
What am i lacking?
Why do i always seem to under-dress?
I ALWAYS ASK THESE QUESTIONS
always!

i know it is better to under-dress than to over-dress for a particular occasion
it's perfect when you fit in(in terms of dressing)
how then can i fit in????????

Whatz this????????!!!!!!!!!!!!

I took my time to listen to a few local tracks (u know what i mean)
and gosh!
The lyrics were so profane!
Suprisingly, that is the only music i hear
It's everywhere, the fm stations, pubs, night clubs (well i dun expect anything better from these places though)
The first line goes like this:
blow blow blow.....................
blow...............
Ayt.
It's not as though i'm readingin-between the lines or anything like that
But u wait till you hear the rest of the song
so bad!!!!!!!!!
I dun think our kids need to hear this!
(like i'm that old) lol!

Let's see
what should i put up?
think think think
Yeah!
okay...................................
here goes ma first try

Being inquisitive is one thing i love doing
(not too good i know)
Okay,........... as they say, it killed the cat not the human .lol!
Coming to think of it, people think being inquisitive is not-too-good
but i've learnt a big lesson from it
Being inquisitive comes with the art of keeping quiet!
I happen to jump on some kinda information today
one that when let out, can actually destroy the lives of so many people
As much as i would like to let it out
I just can't!
I really couldn't believe it
How could he?
so unimaginable
trust me on this;
you may never know what is happening around you till you really take a close look
A very close look!
OMG
i'm till in shock
but there is just one thing i have to do
KEEP QUIET
speech is silveren but silence is golden!
shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and dun forget,
what you dun know doesn't kill you!