Working with guys

Ever thought of how a female working in a male dominated environment feels?

I am in it and trust me on this; it’s as much fun as it is annoying and boring. If you’re the kind who likes attention, it is the ideal place for you to work; all the attention is yours. Everyone wishes to talk to you, have you at least mention their name. If you’re like me, well it’s not such a bad place. It’s manageable (as the Nigerians would say).

Look at the other side; people see you and think, this is so cool or others just pity you. They think you’re trying to do something that females don’t really try out and say “How sad, she just wants to prove masculine”. For those who think its cool, they’ll like to get to know you better. They are actually proud of you though they don’t even know you. It’s like being a star, whiles your fans love you, haters just keep at their job of finding faults.

Being in an auto shop, I’ll say is interesting. The guys actually think you’re too weak or fragile o tighten those nuts and bolts to precision. Yeah we have the torque wrench but we’re in African community, things are done manually around here. Though they are right in most cases, it’s not always true. Keeping your hands soiled through the entire time of working, is another issue I’m not sooo comfortable with and with those parts like the engine block I cannot lift, well that’s why the guys are around.

In totality, it’s not horrible; it’s fun, most especially when you’ve got the right working family with you.
I’m learning loads of things…………………………………… (I’ll keep the rest for another piece)

accepting it as it is

I've heard so many stories about the University, i should say
It is not all about fun as some people think
It requires so much discipline
so so sooo much of that
I guess i have to start accepting some things
Like........
well i can't believe a lecturer can just tell you " I'm gonna trail half of this class"
OMG
This is our life our future, our dream that we've had for so long and have spent sleepless nights working for.
what are we supposed to tell our parents, more importantly ourselves?
I really dunno what to say,
I've just come to the realisation that what you want is not exactly what someone else would want.

Resolution

All I see is a new person
Someone completely changed
With a past that has been erased
A fresh future, bright of course!
A novel path that needs to be trod with someone else in control!
I see a new me……………………………
With you!

Reprieve

Could you ever forgive me?
Will you forget what I did to you?
Can you ever forgive me for troubling you so?
For destroying your life the way I did?
Would you find the will to smile and say “you are forgiven”?
Forget the past?

As we go along separate paths,
Your forgiveness is one thing I beg for
To set my conscience free
To ease the guilt and pain

Never forget this:
I still care about you
I do, truly I do!

Reckoning

I knew it wouldn’t work
But I still wanted to hold-on
Hold-on o to something that was visibly impossible

We were on opposite sides of the earth
We were from different worlds
My family, I knew would never accept one from a different place
But I still kept the flame burning

I knew I did not have a future with him; we had separate paths to tread
But I wanted to enjoy the few moments of love, deep, pure and sincere love.

Love that would last, but for a while
That which had an end!

Why would I want to be so cruel to myself and hurt the one I loved so deeply?
Why would I want to sacrifice months of pain for a few weeks of joy and happiness?
“Am I doing the right?”
*tears flowing down my cheeks*

sooooooo sorry

Hiya pepople i know i have been outta blogville for such a long time
I'm really sorry.
But i'm back now and i'm going to keep you informed about my thoughts (well almost all of them). lol
Try visiting this syte regularly, at least once a week because there should be a new post almost each week
Stay cuul and try to forgive me for being absent for such a long time.

Tus tus everyone................

sooooooo sorry